I'm Just a Small Girl in a Big World

“I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am pretty, but not beautiful. I have friends, but I am not the peacemaker. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love.” -Marilyn Monroe

I have a strange habit of searching for random quotations that mean something to me and saving them. I ran across this one the other night and I thought, "This fits me almost perfectly!". The only difference is I do try to be the peacemaker in my relationships. It spoke to me though. It was as if she knew exactly how I felt! I am most of those things and all I want is LOVE.

 

I was still thinking about this quote the next day on my drive to work and it dawned on me. Marilyn Monroe didn't think she was beautiful?!? How sad it would be to have people all over the world lusting after you and still not think you are beautiful! Did she ever feel beautiful or loved? 

 

I enjoy her movies, but I wouldn't say I am any kind of Marilyn Monroe scholar. I don't know about her childhood. But thinking about how empty she felt makes me think she didn't get the love she needed as a child if people all over the world talked of her beauty and she couldn't see it. 

 

I am blessed to have two very loving parents who always told me I was beautiful, intelligent, funny, and kind. They love me unconditionally. Until I find my great love I know I will always have the love of my family around me. I need a reminder sometimes that is enough.